Different things

Hello. I had a great day today. My dizziness and nautiousness are almost gone which makes life much more enjoyable. I went off of my medication, Paxil, last Friday and suffered through really nasty withdrawls all week. I originally went on Paxil, an anit-depressant, my freshman year of college and have remained on it since then. The psychologist that put me on the medication told me I probably have a seratonin imbalance, and may need to be on anti-depressants for the rest of my life. HOWEVER, God has healed so many of my wounds and taken away so many lies satan told me about myself that I think I'm ready to be free from medicine. Don't worry, I'm doing all of this under my home doctor's and mom's supervision; my mom is a nurse. The problem with anti-depressants is you don't know if you are ready to go off of them until you try, there is just no other way of knowing. I am really optimistic and think that I will be able to go through life experiencing more emotions and more reality without the medicine. Only time will tell. I've been off the medicine for a week today and I feel great. I feel much more raw without the Paxil and I like it.

God has/is really teaching me how to be firm, honest, have boundries that I vocalize, and to say no. I get to practice these characteristics as a cleaner supervisor. Today I really got to practice firmness and telling people no. There were these two guys that would not leave our hostel. They checked out, but then went lingering around upstairs and were sitting in the alcove. They were told many times that they had to leave, but they just kind of brushed it off. Finally, I went upstairs with my authority symbols (my many janitorial keys, and mobile phone) with the goal of "helping these guys out the door". Their english was not very good but I communicated to them that they needed to leave now and that I was going to stand there and watch them leave. I stood there and they just looked at me. Time to get firm. It was a new experience.

I really don't like to be taken advantage of- who does? But, I think Jesus teaches us that if someone wants to take advantage of us we should let them. I need to learn more about this. Because nothing gets under my skin more than when I think a cleaner is trying to take advantage me. I have lots to learn. It can be very hard at times to be a boss.

I have lots more, but my arms are saying no. Later!